Hey everyone :),
I am currently trying to work out whether I 100% completely without a doubt want to get a sleeve.
I have already had a consult with a surgeon and I've got the doctor and dietitian and psych booked.
I currently way 116kg
and I am 167cm
I am 20
I worry I am too young to do this and that I haven't tried long enough to lose weight "normally" etc...
My psychiatrist and doctor are actually the ones who suggested that I get a lap band done (I decided if I was going to get bariatric surgery it was going to be a sleeve because of the unreliability of the lap band). I hadn't even considered it before this I didn't think that it was for someone like me (young and not currently dying, capable of walking around etc - I had quite a few misconceptions obviously).
My psych thinks that this would be good for me and help me get back onto "the bandwagon" and start exercising and dieting (I know that bariatric surgery is just a tool and only really works combined with exercise and diet but I mean that surgery itself would give a push/support needed) and start a positive cycle rather than the negative one I am on currently.
I guess she knows me well enough in that regard so there's that.
I still worry that I would not stick to it and would just waste this/do damage. (I'd like to think I could but I mean there's no way could never KNOW and that worries me)
I currently struggle to leave the house most of the time because I am too embarrassed about how I look (even though I know that is very illogical) and I have other psychiatric issues that could be helped a bit by exercising more.
The more research I do (I have a huge folder in my computer with information and things) the more positive I feel about this but also the more ambivalent and nervous I become if that makes sense at all.
I feel right now that I am going to get it done (I keep thinking about clothes I will
wear or how I am
going to go for a swim etc) (and that's what I feel like 90% of the time) but then every now and then I will have a little (or big) niggling doubt.
I really would like to not waste my younger years (and life) being tired and sore all the time or die young and very unwell.
I don't really have any weight related illnesses like diabetes or anything (other than a mildly fatty liver which I think is pretty much unavoidable at this weight) but I do have IBS (or something else - we aren't sure - basically my bowels hate me) and life long sleep problems and which I think would all be helped (or at least not hurt) by diet control and weight loss that comes with the sleeve.
I'm so sorry for the wall of text, I don't know how much I was supposed to put here so I guess I went for EVERYTHING >.<
I am excited to be able to get you guys' support with this journey.
P.S. I already have so many pages from this forum saved it has been an absolute blessing. I can't thank you enough and I haven't even posted anything yet!
P.P.S. You can call me Barbara or Babs or ANYTHING honestly - it's not my real name (obviously) but I mean who doesn't want to be Batgirl :Ptl;dr I am a 20 yr old weighing 116 kg and standing at 167 cm who is feeling a mostly positive (with a large bit of completely logical nervousness) but a also a bit indecisive about my decision to get a sleeve.