Hi mazzie, 18 months ago I felt like you. Although I am technically a sleeve 'failure' (ie, didn't lose like expected and struggle to not put on now) I have to say I am sooo glad I had the sleeve. Within the first months my blood pressure problems were gone, my diabetes is gone, I don 't even bother to measure my sugars anymore, and they have stopped testing my hba1c due to consistently normal results, and there are many many other benefits that have made my life sooo much easier. Although my BMI is near 40, as my surgeon said, 'on paper I am very healthy'. .... I also weighed up the pros and cons, and I as was looking down a very dark road before, I didn't want to have to travel it without trying to make things better. Best thing I ever did. All the best wishes for you, there is a lot of support and great people here.